Poetic Justice


Midnight, when the hour is darkest;

And secret things lay hidden just outside the reach of moonlight-

I find myself inexplicably wandering through the rose gardens,

Half expecting to see your ghost…

Barefoot in the wet grass, I choose the reddest bloom;

And deign to contemplate our state under the waxing moon.

Cautious not to touch the thorns, I start the telltale game-

Did we Love, or did we not? And are we still the same…

For when Karma finds two silver hearts

Unbowed, unbent, unbroken;

No doubt the Vixen dares to steal

Each truth, each word, unspoken.

-Once Known As “Beautiful”.










Where’s Your Crown King Nothing?


The narcissist doesn’t want your love. They don’t know what love is. They want your admiration, your obedience, and they want to break you down and control you. They will use gas lighting to manipulate you and test your limits to see how far they can push things – ever aware that they are stealing your very  life from you while they further their own selfish agenda. The game will go on until you begin to question your own sanity. The narcissist is drunk on the perceived power he wields and you silly girl are his supply. You’ll bow and bend, and one day without warning, you will break into a billion pieces. And then, he will find a new supply. Until he sees that you have put your broken pieces back together again… and you have become beautifully broken to someone else whose Love doesn’t call for prerequisites – then he will try to claw his way back in and if you are weak, or unguarded even for the slightest instant, the demon will rule again.







Big Buddha




Deep in the lush, green, mountains of Hong Kong, there is a sacred place; obscured from the crowded masses of human ants that overwhelm the city streets. It’s a sky, sea, and mountain journey, but I braved the insanely, treacherous cable car, hundreds of feet into the eerie mists of Lantau Island- and I made the pilgrimage to Tian Tan to see  Big Buddha. I climbed the endless, 260 stone steps into the sky until I found myself at the top, out of breath and sucking in the thick fragrance of burning incense, awe-struck and anxious to seek the truth, and enlightenment that were promised to me should I choose to “buy myself” some Buddha blessings.

It’s no secret that I’ve been separated from what most would call God…voted in the high school year book as, “Most Likely To Start Her Own Religion, I’ve chosen an undying devotion to the oldest religion, the ways of the Strega, the path of the Druids, the old ways before the man made Gods were fashioned. The only true power, the energy that is found present in all things, “the Force”. Some will understand; and those that don’t, resist and fear the light and the dark in life. One cannot know anything without knowing them both, which is why the balance of Yin and Yang still remains an ongoing struggle for all. But it is the ever constant battle between the two which keeps the ebb and flow of all Life. And it is fear of the dark that prevents us from moving forward, but it is only in the darkest times that we can recognize the light…

The ancient feel of Po Lin Monastery enchanted me with it’s shadows and secrets and indeed there was an unmistakeable presence beckoning to me that I could not quite explain, so I did what any lost unicorn would do while wandering whada *(that’s arabic, for “alone”)…I traded my coins for 3 wishes; and although I must not disclose any of them, I can tell you with a mixture of shock and disbelief that this is what has happened…so far:

1. An evil demon was vanquished, and abruptly removed from my life -Alhamdulellah.

2. A Panda followed me home from China… 🙂 x o x x

3. What I thought was lost to me forever, was only hidden -waiting to be found again.

There is a Chinese proverb which says that if the great Buddha answers your wish, you must return to him to Thank him… Wallahy, hader.

The Force in this universe brings the people, places and things into our lives for a reason. I wish I will be a gift again in the life of someone who desperately needs me, truly wants me, and will never deceive me.

To Be Continued….

-Dragon Phoenix Fish Mountain Heart Love Turtle

(*YA, that is the authentic translation of my name STEPHANIE in Chinese. )