Dolce

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My fingers touch the ivory keys
And by their intelligence
I discover my angel wings—
Taking flight
Ascending beyond a translucent world
Where endless tears have raped my eyes
I no longer stand naked
The melancholy masters have cloaked me
Bestowed sight upon my blind ears
Granting me the miracle to make music of my own.

*Dolce—(vb. Italian. “Softly, sweetly.”)

-Spellerella

Hypnotic

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HYPNOTIC

Shadows on the wa-ha-hALL
Old Skeletons and Dreams…..
They’re Dancing in my brain again
And Beckoning to me……

Shadows on the wa-ha-hALL
Shift like (fog) smoke clouds
Haunting little ghosts again
They speak their truths out loud

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Promises and emptiness
That follow me to nigh-hi-height
They echo in my heart again
I’m drowned in neon li-hi-heights

The curtains fall;

But the music doesn’t staaarrrt…

You put your faith in fools

Who were careless with your aaaart

And now there’s no familiar faces in

A brick box full of stray-hayne-gers

This hypnotic vision li-hing-gers

(These hypnotic visions li-hing-ger)…..

Then the voice of the Muse pushes through

It starts a fire deep inside of You

With a message you wished you always knew:

“You can light your shadows
“You can live your dreams
“And despite what alway-haze may seem-
“It’s never too late to be
“What you might have been…”

“And life comes around full circle
“For every stolen chance-
“It’s a (strange) romance
“You can’t hide all your skeletons…
“So you might as well make em’ dance!”

“And if you fix your course to a star”
“Babe you might just catch the mooooooon”
“There’s endless possibilities!!!!!!

“Waiting out there to pursue.”

-Spellerella

 

 

 

Winter’s Kiss

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WINTER’S KISS
A winter kiss ain’t going to save you or save me

Too late to carry all the damage you gave me

After the snowflakes and tears disappear…

There’s nothing here.

I bet you’re thinking we can face this together

You know we’ve conquered all the worse kinds of weather

We’ve skated over panic and fear…

We’ll make it out of here.

But Winter kisses at your window can’t cross the bridge you burned

And You’ll never learn

That Words are like nails – and you caaan’t

Float to shore inside a sinking heart….

A winter kiss just ain’t enough for me baby…

You borrowed trouble-

Now you’re driving me crazy..

Save your sorrys and your dramatic play

Tomorrow’s coming TODAY.

Coz Winter Kisses at your window can’t cross the bridge you burned

And you never learned,

That words are like fire and you caaan’t

Find shelter in a burning heart.

And you can’t fill the holes inside me fast enough

And the damage that you dealt us is too dangerous

I’ve fallen down over you for the 1000th time

So baaabyyyyyy cryyyyyyy all niiiiiiiiiiiiight !

Yeah Winter Kisses at your window can’t cross the bridge you burned,

And you still haven’t learned,

That words can draw blood and you caaan’t

Build a future on a bleeding heart.

So baaaabyyyyy looooooose your sooooouuuul !

………….. in this last Winter’s kiss.

Your Winter Kisses at my window can’t cross the bridge you burned,

And you will NEVER learn

That words are like ice and you can’t

Stand safe on a broken heart.

Winter Kisses disappear– and we won’t be here……..

-Spellerella.

Dancing Intellectual

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Floating through time and space,

Like a feather lost in wake and in Dreams,

I, the imaginary, beautiful, almost ballerina make the dark days sing;

Floating, dancing, flawlessly between the music, and the words,

Living the artist’s way;

Spinning Love and Magick and Truth with reckless abandon…

Defying Fate and fabricating my Faith to fool even my own disbelief;

Embracing with Grace all that I face,

Desperately trying to treasure one moment- The Moment.

But moments and treasures are rare;

And Time holds the key to my steps…

And what is a step? but a part of the Dream?

Which the Dancer controls through her Art;

Twirling, leaping, bending, spinning, screaming, falling, down-

Perfecting the story- she dances stubbornly on,

Escaping all rhyme or reason,

She keeps her eyes closed, and her heart focused on the stage;

Believing nothing-

And re-becoming the Dancing Intellectual she’s always been.

-Spellerella.

 

 

 

Earth Water Sky Shadow Fire

 

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An esoteric girl sits in melancholy solitaire

Her long, soft, dark hair

Draped dramatically over her shoulder,
Disappearing into her dark sweater
Obscured almost entirely
By the dark shadows of the forest
Its lush green floor, swallowing up her feet.

Behind her, is an explosion,
Of pink,-yellow-purple hues
They blend themselves expertly
Into a flawless portrait of a celestial sky.
These blazing lights from above
Produce infinite, miniscule flames
That dance on the water’s surface.
Meandering endless, wild fire,
Coming to a halting stop

Divided by the dark, ominous forest,
And the definite dark, line of the edge of the earth.
In silhouette she stares,
Her stature frozen;
To hear the sound of silence-
To watch for her dream.

–Stephanie Diane Labbate

 

Saved

Alone in the dark for so long!
Careful to never show my heart to You or anyone who knew You
I walked down every path of my own making
I turned from the light and from Your awesome love.
My heart was filled with terrible fear-
I saw You and heard You inside my dreams.
I cowered behind the lies I told myself were Truth.
I lived outside of Faith-
I drugged myself into heavy sleep..
I was -blind-deaf-dumb.
I suffered, doubted, questioned, and cried out in Despair!
And then you sent an angel into my life–
You coaxed me from the dark!
You challenged me to sift through the ashes
To piece together the scattered remnants of my Faith
And there, underneath much madness and disarray,
A sparkle, a glint, of next to nothingness,
I saw there was some HOPE!
And now it lives in me, it grows, as do You!
Filling up my heart with joy.
Though there must be many angels in our Father’s Heaven,
Yours gave an unexpected gift to me–
A second chance to walk with You
And footprints on my heart.

-Spellerella

One Moment In Time

TIME
You are a most cruel angel
Disguising yourself in early years
You left us hungry, desperate and pressed towards every discovery.

IN TIME
Our impatience shattered every innocence
And in our haste we destroyed that which we can never hope to know again
So we locked away our thoughts in an effort to avoid further consequence.

THIS TIME
You bring your nostalgia in rainstorms
Terrible torrents of places best kept unremembered
I will not go gently into your greedy hands
For every moment in which you carry me backwards
Is another moment stolen.

-Spellerella

Nevermore


I’m lying in the Dark, haunted by your words
Reminiscing of the little teenage beauty
You challenged, protected, worshipped and chased
Ever mindful of the edge between us
Careful not to fall–scared to become what I could not be
Aware that a single thought
Might rouse the demon lust
Might take me down with you into the deep.

But even the hero must sleep–
And I’m plagued by a terrible Shadow;
She makes her nocturnal visits
Leaning over my bed
Stealing her way into my mind
Filling me with whispers of melancholy and madness.
She is coming to me with Her sadistic charms
Beguiling me and bewitching me with tricks and clever promises
She rapes my mind and my eyes with the dreams and bloody tears of others
They sting like wildfire down my ashen face.
My ashen face! which was once rose-stained
Slowly ages with the sorrow of all our deaths.

Ten thousand tears I would cry to see our world put right again
O but would that those tears could come!
And wash away every rising mist of all our days gone by
I would curse every wicked spider She sent to you
Strike down the terrible webs that bound you to her
Find remedy for the poisons She fed to you
Shine a truth and a light to shrink away Her darkness.

She is waiting always for her next victim.
The web is being spun, the trap is set and ready.
I will not go to Her gently, not now–not ever!
I will remember every kindness you bestowed,
I will hold to my courage and it will shield me,
I will summon my faith like a bolt of lightning,
I will be the fearless, beautiful angel you believed me to be!

I will do this for you, because where you go, I cannot follow.
You go, and yet you stay with me… so I give my goodbyes in this prayer:
May you never let go of the light when you finally find it.
Never give up hope.
Never fall to darkness.
Never again.
Nevermore.

-Spellerella